Random Thoughts: December 2010

• Be by your side whatever your gonna do, We were high, We were low but I promise I will never let you go said I got I got I got I got your back boy.

• You’re the sweetest person I know, you never forget the Morning kisses, not to mention waiting for me to get home every night. It’s the start of the long road to be traveled. You’ve proven yourself to me. I can’t wait to be with you tomorrow. I love you.

• My Best Friends are right, eventually, everything will fall into place. Things you wanted before never worked out because you deserve something better in the future. I have the best parents, the best siblings, the best relatives, the best friends, the if not the best but good enough life. And someone I deserve. <3

• Okay ka sana, gwapo ka, may dating, kaso, madali kang magsawa. Matalino ka naman, kaso hindi mo majustify. Pero okay lang yan. Makakahanap ka ng katapat mo. Yung tipong babaliktad yung mundo mo.

• Pretending to be Self-Esteem deprived is tiring. Been there, done that. What to do next? Maybe I should act homeless or something. Better, I should act like I’m sick and will be dying soon. Then admit that I’m only faking it. It would be the best LULZ Bringer in Tumblr History. COOL STORY BRAH.

• I’m nicotine free for 2 Days now, I think I’m getting the hang of it. But I got a sore throat. I really wanna smoke. But I think I can pull this off. I’m having chest pains in the night time, before I sleep and I feel the same pain the next morning. Oh well, We are all gonna die anyway.

• These memories are a single weight and you are the one with the extended palm, open and trusting the fall of light against the flesh that surrounds your life lines.

To be completely honest, I’m in pain. At this moment, it’s really hard for me to keep my cool and not to be sad about things. Imagine, you were at that point of ecstatic happiness and bubbly wobbliness, but in an instance, just one blink of an eye. Everything falls apart.

And you, stuck in the moment of happiness, and you can’t move on from it

Left.

So I deactivated my Tumblr account for several reasons I can't tell. But, leaving is always heartbreaking, not to mention the number of followers I have there.

Will not expound.

Capability

Until now, I’m still thinking if I could handle a commitment. Honestly, I’m scared. But hey! Getting hurt is a part of the perks you have when you engage into a REAL-ationship.

I’ve been through Love-Hates, Rebounds, and Wala-Lang’s. I dunno what’s in store for me now. But all I know is, I’m in love with you, and I’m at the verge of risking it all. We are at the point of no turning back. No regrets, just love. I'm at a 180 bpm heartbeat. I'm feeling chills down my spine. My knees are shaking.

I don't know what to do.

Drenched in Vanilla Twilight

I sit in my front porch all night. Waist-deep in thought when I think of you I don’t feel so alone.

I don’t feel so alone. Time to time I would recall, the freshest of the memories I could think of. I suck at distance, I’m learning to fuck it. To be really honest. I really miss you. The way you our hands fit perfectly when held. The way you would seek comfort on my shoulders. The way you would threaten me. If time and distance permits, I wish to be with you again. I would like to see that crooked smile, that angelic face, and feel the butterflies in my stomach that trembles whenever I’m beside you.

I lie on my bed, frustrated, I can’t seem to remember the last time I felt this way. Uneasy, trembling, crumbling, because of the fear of losing you. Each time I lie on my bed, I think of what If’s.

But I trust you, I trust in what we have.

I love you.

44 Minutes

I was on the phone with him for 44 Minutes. In that 44 Minutes, we felt all the emotions a person can feel in a lifetime. We laughed, cried, smiled, frowned, giggled, chuckled, teared up through the phone. 44 Minutes, or 2640 Seconds. Just that small span of time, made me realize how much I am in love with you.

I wish I never ran out of load, I could go all night talking to you. But hey, there’s always tomorrow, and super unli.

I love you, don’t be sad na. Cheer up okay, I’m here. I promise, I’ll stay.
Love is accepting someone, assets and flaws.