Over

Everything has been said and done, proof that not everything is worth the wait. I can't say I don't feel bad but something in me tells me that I should be happy. I can't tell more than how I can feel. I'm blank. I need to go to the mall or something, and at the same time stay here and burst into tears.

I am sad, because we haven’t talked that much. The last time we talked was last night. And you were shouting at me via SMS. Ugh. I dunno what I did for you to hate me this much.

I just wanted to see you and hear things from you, was that bad? I miss you

Dorothy got pawned

Stalk

I have this habit of checking your facebook wall everynight. Just to see if you have updated your status.

I miss you already.

Return

There you were, standing in front of the place where we shall meet. I was with my friends, from afar I can see you as I peek into the window of the cab I am in. As I open the door I see you watch me pop my head out of the window, thus, you flashed a smile.

A simple gesture that made my night, I missed you. After several shots and a few problems, I ended up back to your arms, and you kissed me in front of everyone I know.

Here I am again, waiting for you to comeback, Yes, coming back, you. Nothing's wrong with that. You told me you are so I will wait. Tonight, you told me you still love me. But you need time to think, I'm giving it to you. I'm sure it will be best for us. After 5 months, we'd still find our ways back to each other's arms.

You don't know how long I have waited for this. I've entered several relationships after you but nothing seemed right. If this happens. I will never let you go. Letting you go once filled my life with regret since this moment.

So I won't.

I love you, L.

Birthday 2011

It was hella fun. Countless greetings had flooded all my Social Networking accounts. Got drunk before my day ends. Bonded with my best friends the whole afternoon.

Ecstatic. I can't wait for Saturday.

Is that the best pet name you can think of?

So you call me Bori and I call you Willow. Yes. Our names inverted. I know it's nothing significant for you but for me, it brings my butterflies to ecstasy. You have problems, I bet with him. I wouldn't bother asking what happened because I'm afraid to know something.

I'm afraid to know if you are hurt. What ever hurts you might hurt me too. After all, sayo na nanggaling. We have this special connection. Corny it may seem, but true.

Question Existing

So I had all the courage to ask you one question that's been bothering me for the longest time now. We were on SMS. Suddenly, I felt the urge to ask him; 'So, bakit kaya after ko hindi ka na nagkaboyfriend ulit?'

Sent a follow up message that read: 'That question is out of pure curiosity'

I waited for an hour, no reply came. I think the person was too personal. But then my phone vibrated. It's from him. His reply read:

'Let's just say I'm waiting for someone'

I suddenly smiled. Wishing that I was that someone, but I myself turned my hopes down by replying. 'OMG. Akala ko ba may someone ka na ngayon?'

Now. I wait again. in vain.

Cool Off

I need time to think. I need time to relax. I need time to Just breathe. I need to think. About everything. Every move I make is critical. Every word can make or break what we have. We have issues we can't deny, or is it only me? See you soon, or so I think? We can't tell what the future brings.

I hope we can work this out. I just do.

Closure

Everything I wanted to hear came, or so it seems. We were having a friendly conversation and some hints of flirting but nevertheless both of us are hesitant. Not wanting to make things awkward.

Then I had the sudden urge to ask you: "Bakit hindi mo sabihin sakin kung anong mali ko dati? Tanong lang yan'

I was waiting for his reply, without knowing that I wasn't able to send the message. So I sent it again.

As expected I fell asleep. I woke up at 7AM and read this reply: 'Yung mali mo eh yung paniwalaing may ibaka na and ang gusto mo lang palang gawin ko eh habulin ka... Hindi pa ba sapat sayo lahat ng effort ko para mapatunayang love kita at kailangan mong gawin yun?'

And I bursted into tears, and went back to sleep again. And I replied as soon as I woke up:

'I wanted you to fight for me, that's all...'

Gondola Ride

You and I are getting closer and closer again. Hindi ko alam kung dapat akong maging masaya. Alam kong nararamdaman mong isang hatak mo lang, makukuha mo ulit ako. Pero hindi ko alam kung anong nasa isip mo, o di kaya anong nasa puso mo.

Meh. Ayoko na sanang magdrama eh. Kaso hindi ko na talaga kaya. Ang hirap lang kung hindi ko ivevent out. Mahal ko siya, kaso nasasakal na ako. Hindi ko alam kung hanggang saan ko kakayanin tong pagkapit kong halos kuko nalang. Ang masaklap pa. Overcut yung mga kuko ko. I'm barely hanging on.

Hindi ko masabi sa kanya kasi alam kong nasasaktan na siya. Sisiguraduhin ko nalang ba na hindi ako ang unang bibitaw?

Nalulula na ko. Bakit ko pa ba naisipang sumakay sa gondola mo, kung palilipatin rin pala ako?